New Year, New Life or New Lies...

I’ve struggled tremendously with my writing lately working on developing a new level of personal integrity.  I talk about the truth with clients all day long dealing with denial, delusions and illusions in all its forms and fascinations.  The real truth is that it is always easier to discern a lie within others than it is within yourself.

The problem is the blinders we have cultivated from birth creating a comfortable blindness to the depth of our own brokenness.  We strive to survive and even thrive with the greatest intentions forever missing the mark because of our own misconceptions. 

Poisoned perceptions we have adopted along the way in the pursuit of happiness finding instead hurt and heartbreak.  When we begin to hide from hope because we fear being hurt the world begins to slide upside down as we begin to scramble for the scraps of satisfaction instead of believing we deserve the best life has to offer. 

Making resolutions has become a fad of the past because we’ve stopped believing in our own words.  The new society now focuses on the new problems this year will bring instead of the potential a new year promises.  Worrying about things beyond our own control we still seek to master the material things of realm discovering only more madness. 

Inevitably incurring excruciating disappointment our psyche embraces a brittle fragility coveting the pieces of a broken heart instead of mending it.  I speak from personal experience sickened by the sham within my own psyche.  Holding myself to an unforgivable level that I can’t possible live.  Carrying the baggage from back in the day is the reason why we can’t walk upright. Our spine has been crippled with a curse we have created that confines us. 

This self-contained cage keeping us out of arm’s reach of our destiny and dreams, routinely using excuses for a dysfunction we have the ability to restore.  Unfortunately, age has become an enemy to the answer and an ally to our issues as time rolls by adding years and layers to the lies with live with. 

The thickness of our own self-delusions resembles that of the great red wood trees in Nevada.  We have rings of resistance rejecting the truth of our own self-deception to the point where we are allergic to authenticity. 

We’ve insulated ourselves with insincerity avoiding intimacy filled with insecurity we travel the road much trampled like many others that feel inadequate, because there is strength and sickness in numbers. 

The cure is to create change but for that to happen we must endure hurt, revisiting the old motto, “No Pain, No Gain”.  Breaking the locks of our own self-loathing involves a Determination beyond depression, a Faith that overpowers fear and a Love that can lead the lost.  For all is lost if we can’t leave our mistakes and self-loathing in yesterday, leaving the lies of 2016 in history. 

The problem: we choose to repeat mistakes recycling insanity until we can’t live without the disease of drama.  Forever falling and never getting up sinking deeper in the depths of depravity and despair.  Buried beneath brokenness we literally need to die to be reborn again answering the call to be courageous one more time. 

The brave men and women that decide to push past their own self-pity pulling themselves up and over their own end into a New Beginning!  Letting go of their grief to embrace grace pardons them from all past sins that have enslaved their mind in shame. 

The freedom from the hell of self-condemnation releases the imagination to do the impossible, pumping hope into the heart to truly heal.  Sadly, this story isn’t for everyone, the terminal cynic can’t comprehend the power of belief beyond boundaries.  They can’t see the miracles manifesting every week Monday thru Friday saving people from misery and madness. 

The troubles we have encountered have caused serious trauma but hidden beneath all the abuse, anger, addictions and atrocities is a flickering spark of salvation.  A tiny ember that hasn’t burnt out despite the burdens trying to smother it. 

The simple truth is we just need to feed this little flame just a little bit of faith to make a fire that will burn away the false beliefs in our brain.   The messed-up mantra we play on a loop telling ourselves every negative thing we can imagine.  “We have to have heroin…  we can’t live without liquor…  we can’t fix our failing relationship…  we will never be delivered from depression…  we don’t deserve our dreams and we have no purpose on this planet or destiny…” 

Do you really want to continue believing you are broken beyond repair, beyond faith and even prayer, or do you want to try something different keeping your promise to persevere, refusing to live accepting your own lies like you did last year…?   

Make the choice to be the change and climb over every challenge in 2017…